Friday, June 15, 2007
recently a lot of thing.. i guess i am tired.. i off my hp, take break from work for 1 mth, nvr go sch this 2days.. i am not running.. but i nid a silent break..
FRIENDS
-all smses bugging me.. telling me their stuff..telling me how sad they were.. telling me how much they wanna go.. telling how troubled they were.. i couldn't reject listening.. or shld i say i know how much they wanna say out so no matter how tired am i, i still try my vv best to help every 1 of them.. and it do hurtz to see ur friends get hurt, sad n depressed..
WORK
friends are gg 1 by 1.. i work even when i am vv vv tired.. "him".. e way "he" treat me.. sumtme gd.. sumtme cold.. ppl r slacking like hell at work.. it's a funny thing that at times i am doing all the stuff n closing...
SCHOOL
no 1 is doing hw.. always.. i finish my tutorial.. and following days in class, they copy.. i stay up late to finish.. they copy HARD in sch.. 1 by 1 leaving too.. tiff gg america.. qi and liyu wanna go other sch also dun wanna stay le..
to: myself
PLS SLAP URSELF HARD ENUFF.. WAT'S HAPPENING TO U.. Y R U BECOMING TO BE SO ALONE.. U USED TO TALK, JOKE, LAUGH N PLAY A LOT WID ALL OF THEM BE IT AT WORK OR SCHOOL OR OUTSIDE.. BUT NOW? U BECOMING TO TALK LESS.. CHOOSE TO STAY ALONE.. TIRED OF COMMUNICATING WID PPL.. TIRED OF GETTING WID PPL..LOW CONFIDENCE.. LOW MORALE.. NO SMILE ON UR FACE.. R U CRAZY.. R U MAD.. I HATE E U RIGHT NOW...
arrrgghh.. where u.. matt... u always follow me silently and hug me whenever i have prob.. i beginning to miss u.. u must be angry.. must be hating me.. for hiding u all along in e corner of my heart.. u must be angry cos i am right now in agony loving "him".. u muz be.. thus u made me miss u like crazy these 2 yr plus.. we r so close yet no courage thus so far.. remember our first hug tgt.. first kiss.. first date.. e 99 letters u wrote for me. i hate myself for saying u no nid come back to look for me.. i say that in anger.. but i m losing u forever..
i m tired.. i am not oning my hp.. i am cutting off all channels from the world.. i m no longer e gal u guys know.. it suck.. i want PEACE.. just find this world is too noisy.. NOISY..
FRIENDS
-all smses bugging me.. telling me their stuff..telling me how sad they were.. telling me how much they wanna go.. telling how troubled they were.. i couldn't reject listening.. or shld i say i know how much they wanna say out so no matter how tired am i, i still try my vv best to help every 1 of them.. and it do hurtz to see ur friends get hurt, sad n depressed..
WORK
friends are gg 1 by 1.. i work even when i am vv vv tired.. "him".. e way "he" treat me.. sumtme gd.. sumtme cold.. ppl r slacking like hell at work.. it's a funny thing that at times i am doing all the stuff n closing...
SCHOOL
no 1 is doing hw.. always.. i finish my tutorial.. and following days in class, they copy.. i stay up late to finish.. they copy HARD in sch.. 1 by 1 leaving too.. tiff gg america.. qi and liyu wanna go other sch also dun wanna stay le..
to: myself
PLS SLAP URSELF HARD ENUFF.. WAT'S HAPPENING TO U.. Y R U BECOMING TO BE SO ALONE.. U USED TO TALK, JOKE, LAUGH N PLAY A LOT WID ALL OF THEM BE IT AT WORK OR SCHOOL OR OUTSIDE.. BUT NOW? U BECOMING TO TALK LESS.. CHOOSE TO STAY ALONE.. TIRED OF COMMUNICATING WID PPL.. TIRED OF GETTING WID PPL..LOW CONFIDENCE.. LOW MORALE.. NO SMILE ON UR FACE.. R U CRAZY.. R U MAD.. I HATE E U RIGHT NOW...
arrrgghh.. where u.. matt... u always follow me silently and hug me whenever i have prob.. i beginning to miss u.. u must be angry.. must be hating me.. for hiding u all along in e corner of my heart.. u must be angry cos i am right now in agony loving "him".. u muz be.. thus u made me miss u like crazy these 2 yr plus.. we r so close yet no courage thus so far.. remember our first hug tgt.. first kiss.. first date.. e 99 letters u wrote for me. i hate myself for saying u no nid come back to look for me.. i say that in anger.. but i m losing u forever..
i m tired.. i am not oning my hp.. i am cutting off all channels from the world.. i m no longer e gal u guys know.. it suck.. i want PEACE.. just find this world is too noisy.. NOISY..
Precious you
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