Thursday, March 8, 2007

1)today peaceful in the afternoon.. woke up watch tv till 3 plus.. tired le.. went slp awhile cos working ltr at 7.. at ard 530pm, bro knock on my door.. n told me that he was caught smoking in the toilet.. n the teacher called up my dad in afternoon.. when i learnt this news, i was not angry but seriously sad.. cos since young, my bro is more sensible than me.. he is younger thn me 3 yr old.. but he is always like my elder bro.. i was bad in my lower sec n pri life.. once remember i work with him the ice-cream job.. i smoke.. but he took away my lighter n say jie.. i say cnnt smoke.. n he simply refuse to return.. he even throw it off.. when i made my parent worry abt my stupid attitude.. he tell me not to let my parent worry.. but this time.. i feel so ssad.. is cos he is my 1 n onli bro.. although i dun show it out.. but he is like my precious.. lots of time, when my mum come telling me is ur bro smoking.. my reply to her is always no.. cos i believe my bro will nvr turn bad.. so i went his room n talk with him asking him why.. he told me he start smoking at nov like this.. cos that time he with his this girl classmate(which i know).. but the girl just simply play his heart.. thn after break, he began depressed n smoke but he say he know he wrong le.. n he reali nvr turn bad.. is all my fault.. cos tat time cos of my prob, i din notice.. i din concern his feeling.. din know that he was realli serious in it.. that was his first love.. talk to him halfway, i ran to my room n shut myself.. i cnt control my tear.. i am worry that my dad will beat him..so i called manna tell jiaen if i am able to off work today.. she learnt my situation n console me not to cry all that.. mydad home but he did not caned my bro..

2)but he say loads of thing.. he reveal loads of thing me n my bro dunno but he told us to keep it secret.. cos he want mum to forget abt it.. first.. a divine priest told my mum n dad 4 mth ago when my mum n dad went to a temple.. that my mum will not lived more thn 50 yrs old.. u all might be thinking is fake 1.. at first we tot so.. but e priest manage to predict all the things n it happen now le.. he predict my bro will smoke.. my dad will have a fortune.. n reali, it all come thru.. n is onli recent.. my mum n dad din let us know 4 mths ago.. she cry in secret.. she even apply insurance.. e name of benefit is under me n my bro.. she save n scrape n always deposit money w/o us knowing just to bring us out for vacation on april or may.. the priest say he will help my mum to overcome this crisis if they have the fate to meet in temple again before the thing happen..to mit him, maybe it will be 1 week.1 mth, 1 yr or nvr meet.. if got fate, will meet.. my mum is already 46 this yr.. this 4 mth, dad alone go to the temple several times in the week just to hope to find the priest.. the priest is famous in world too.. when upon hearing, me n bro cnt control our tears.. I AM REALI UNFIFIAL.. Y DIN I REALISE ALL THE THING.. Y DIN I GO CARE N CONSOLE MY BRO REGARDING HIS BREAK UP JUST COS I AM SAD THAT TIME TOO.. Y DIN I REALISE MY MUM SADNESS N WORRINESS.. Y DIN I REALISE THAT MY PARENT HAVE DOING SO MUCH THING FOR US... YYYYYYYYYY???

4))sry.. if u seen me gt abit no mood sumtmes recently.. i am just being afraid of losing my mum..just feeling guilty of not being a gd daughter n sis.. just feeling terrible.. cos i cant afford to lose them.. i can lose everything in this world but not them.. they r my onli loved ones.. my family.. i cnt imagine the life without them,, when i saw my mum after she back at 7 plus.. i forcefully control my tears.. my bro too.. we have to act as we know nth bt her stuff..

4)bro having caning tml.. i cnt help but worry for him.. cnt sleep.. will it be pain?? i seen ppl caning b4, it seem quite pain.. god.. truly hope u will lessen the pain tml..

feeling devastated.. worry.. tears flowing..
god bless
-ms apple pie/sher-

Precious you
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